It's all about Stuff

I can't get over it and I can't find a way around it... just gotta go through it.

Stuff. You know, clothes, jewelry, decor and all that 'stuff' that makes us unique and happy. Supposedly.

I do like stuff, but I do not have money. So here I am, looking at all this stuff online... cool stuff that would be original and describes me perfectly. I have no money to buy this stuff and it makes me feel inadequate. Makes me feel like I'm not describing my personality to the world. I mean, even if I find stuff on sale, I wont buy it because I know I need my money for other things right now. But that is how it has been my whole life, so when does the lack of money end and the stuff begin?

Every time you think you are ahead, something falls through and you are once again just making it. That's just how it feels right now, half empty. Also, every time I think I wont make it, something happens so that we have just enough... so there's the half full that I do so love.

Every time I think I'm going to finally get all of my hours in at work, something happens. I get sick, which describes these past two days. Ugg.... so I'll just keep plugging away and hoping to get ahead. By the time I have money for stuff, I might be so engulfed in the reasons to not buy it that I'll never feel satisfied.

Well, we'll see and as always hoping for the best!