The boy and I figured out what we need to make to get by with the apartment and with the BOA job as well as Burlington, we should cover it! With little left over of course, but most of me believes that having an apartment is so worth the cut backs! I only wish I had realized earlier, before I quite the retail job... At the time I thought there wasn't a more horrible job and that I could find a new job in less than a week. I was very wrong.
Now I need to prove myself to Karma and to Fate and to God. I believe in those things and it's time I admit it. In order to do well, I must prove that I will work hard no matter what. I just need to remind myself on the bad days that if I work hard, a brake will come. I cannot expect everything to come to me- it is time for me to chase what I want.
Of course, I am worried because I haven't been able to get a job in my field and now going into a possible career that has nothing to do with my wonderful field... well, what if I loose my skill? I worked so hard in school and I truly enjoyed PR and Desktop Publishing. I really grew as a writer and even though I've said that I don't care about getting a writing job because I just need a job, I would really love one.
What I need to do is work this job and do my best, meanwhile keeping an eye out for writing opportunities. I can't be afraid to be on top and I can't be afraid to work my ass off to get there.
Writing is such a wonderful way to gain insight.
Bird.
PS - Good bye to another wonderful Autumn and hello to a week of 30 something temps. Brrr.
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