I'm sure I'm not the only one

Oh blog, how I've missed you!

I would be surprised to learn that more than one person actually reads this blog, but it is a wonderful tool for self soothing, venting and self discovery.

The apartment is wonderful, except the lack of Internet. The pups are wonderful, except that they still don't get along. The marriage is wonderful, except.... well it seems as though it would follow the pattern, but I don't have an exception to this one. I'm hating my job and the boy is my rock. I love him and if it weren't for him, I would (well, I wouldn't need this job), but other than that I would probably have been put in a mental hospital by now.

Anyway, this whole job thing. I am trying so hard to do the right thing by finding another job while still maintaining this one, but it isn't easy. I despise this job. I get sick with stress knowing that I have to do it today and tomorrow and the next day. I am a person with intense emotions and while that can be good in some instances, it can be very bad in others. Not only do I know what I love, I know what I hate and hatred brings on so many other disturbing feelings. I'm a great decision maker by what feels right and it usually works out wonderfully, but when it feels wrong and the reality is that I cannot change it right away, there are some serious stress issues.

SO, here I am... searching for another job. I would like to find one in my field (Professional Writing: PR, Journalism, Creative Writing and anything in between). Really, I promise I'm not having to LOVE my job. At this point I would love a job I didn't mind.

The least I can feel good about is that I'm trying. Since discovering the hatred for my job (about four weeks ago) I've applied for three likable jobs that somewhat pertain to my career path. I wish I could apply for more, but the job market is not so great and I need to make enough $ to sustain while the boy is finishing up school.

We'll make it. I just gotta keep trying my best and hoping. Overall, I hope the physical stress of hating this job doesn't hurt me too much in the long run.